The first minute I felt strong.
Feet firmly attached to the ground.
Feeling like the world is in my hands.
Until my world shattered.

In a blink of an eye, I was ruined.
Couldn’t breathe.
Couldn’t stand.
Couldn’t survive.

My head felt as light as a feather.
My breaths short and uneven.
My fingers were shaking uncontrollably.
My heart pacing so fast I thought it would explode.

I walked around,
breathing in as much oxygen as I could.
But I could not fix it.
No one could fix it.

I feel like I want to die.
Like nothing in the world matters anymore.
Like I could weep and laugh at the same time.
Like I want to melt into the floor and vanish.

Here I am, screaming for help.


Life Updates!

So…I suddenly miss my blog and I decided to write a post at this time of the day. I’m still alive and well! I just haven’t had anything to write about lately because apparently the life of an unemployed graduate is that boring. I finally have a good news to tell, though! I finally got my acceptance letter for the Master of Counselling program in UQ, so I’m coming back to Brisbane!!! Finally I have something to look forward to and I just can’t wait to go back as soon as I can! 😀

Besides that, I’m going to Malaysia next week to see VIXX’s showcase and the reality still hasn’t hit me yet. I even bought the VIP ticket that allows me to go into the high-five session, hopefully it won’t be that quick…:( Other than that, I’ve been doing the most random things that I’ve never done before, such as knitting and running. Apparently knitting is a lot of fun, and I can see myself doing it a lot in the future! ^^ Whereas for running, I just had the strongest urge to run somehow, maybe it’s from the lack of dancing 😦 I miss dancing so much but after a year of dancing with such amazing friends, it feels weird dancing alone again…

My love life is still absent up until now, I wonder when I will be able to fall in love again? I mean, I am 21 years old now, they say it’s when a girl starts to bloom…I’m turning 22 in 3 months so hurry up, love! Show yourself in front of me! I’ve been single for almost 2 years, I think I’m ready to start a new love life, okay!

I guess that’s it for now, I don’t know what else to talk about…my life is honestly not that exciting at the moment…I’ll find more inspirations for poems, I promise!!!

Life Updates!