Lies

It’s 7.00 am and I’m lying wide awake on my bed.
He had just left.
Leaving me in the silence.
It stings my ears, hurts my brain.
The ceiling is closing down on me.
My breaths were uneven, unsteady.
I’m laying still, but my head is turning around.
A pair on invisible hands ripped my clothes off.
Clenching my heart tightly until it bursts.
From the peripherals, I could see the sun sets already.
How long have I stayed here, between life and death?

It’s 7.01 am and I’m lying wide awake on my bed.
Did I sleep or didn’t I?

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Lies

11.11

11.11 am.
Tick, tock, tick, tock.
Look at the clock.
Close your eyes and make a wish.

Did you think of someone?

11.11 pm.
Tick, tock, tick, tock.
Look at the clock.
Close your eyes and make a wish.

Did you think of me?

11.11.
I close my eyes and think of you.
I wish for us.

11.11

When I Say I Love You

My dearest,
When I say I love you,
You know it’s true,
Believe me I’m being honest!

When I say I love you,
Even when I don’t understand what love is,
I can say it because I feel it,
And know that I only say it to you.

When I say I love you,
deter any doubts about me,
I don’t say it to anyone but you,
Would you say it back to me?

When I say I love you,
I mean every single word of it.
I don’t understand love like you do,
but it does not mean I can’t feel it.

When I say I love you,
I don’t say it casually.
It takes effort to blurt it out of my body,
But I try hard because it’s you.

When I say I love you,
Listen to me carefully,
Because I won’t say it daily,
Or every time I see you.

When I say I love you,
Don’t take me for granted.
Even if I give my heart for you,
I still listen to the words inside my head.

When I say I love you,
I want to hear you say you love me too.
But if you only say it half-heartedly,
I can never accept it.

When I say I love you,
Believe me that it’s true.
I may be a love fool,
but I know that I love you.

When I say I love you,
the worst response is not rejection.
It’s when you refuse to believe my affection,
when the only one in my heart is you.

When I say I love you, my dearest,
It will be my last.

When I Say I Love You

Freefalling

Heights.
Something just fascinates me so much about heights.
Not just the thrill, but also the beauty.
It pumps the adrenaline, yet it calms you down at the same time.
On top of the building, you see things that you can’t see while standing on the ground.
You see a larger view of the world, like you’re standing on top of it.
The wind feels nicer on top, so take a deeper breath.
Don’t fall just now!
No…not yet.
This height is nothing compared to 12,000 feet above the ground.

Yes…let me take you even higher.

From 12,000 feet, the wind is rough and cold.
Yet the view is unbelievably breathtaking. Almost quite literally.
It would be hard to breathe.
You won’t be able to scream.
Now you jump.
Yes…just jump. Throw yourself out of that plane.
Spread your arms and enjoy the view.
The emerald sea and the spherical horizon around you.
So serene, so peaceful, you forget that there are people down there.
Forget the adrenaline, everything is so peaceful and quiet.

Enjoy your free fall.

Where you will land, who knows?

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Suddenly missing my skydive experience.

Freefalling