Her heart was burned into ashes from the passion. Wind blew the ashes away. There, once again, she was free.
When we shut down our emotions, it’s only natural we want to inflict pain just to feel again.
She has been in control of her life, but the red, puffy eyes in the reflection scream weakness in her face. She was human again.
I am fine.
I am not.
This is the best for us.
I don’t want to let you go.
This is to save ourselves from being hurt.
I’d rather get hurt.
I won’t change my principles.
I would rather be your friend and stay by your side.
Please call me love once again and hold me tight.
I know we have no future.
Fuck the future, we live in the present.
We can find someone else, right?
But I want you.
I am strong enough to move on.
I can’t…I really can’t.
This is not a goodbye, this is for a better future.
Goodbye to those lovely days.
This is not the end.
Have you ever felt like you have had enough, and you just want to end everything?
You can be my best friend.
Fuck, I still love you.
We have been living in a fantasy.
I would do anything to make those fantasies come true.
We live in a real world.
Take me away and let’s build our own utopia.
This is better than losing you forever.
But I want to love you.
I can stand on my own two feet.
I can be strong.
But I’m not.
No one belongs to anybody.
But you were mine.
I don’t belong to anyone else but myself.
But I was yours.
I adore you as a friend.
No, I still love you.
I don’t want to lose you.
I don’t want to lose you.
I know I haven’t talked to you in a while.
I haven’t prayed like I was taught to.
But you know you’re always on my mind.
You know you never left my heart.
there has been something that’s bothering me lately.
And I thought I want to ask you why,
because I don’t understand.
Can you answer me?
why do people worship you differently?
Tell me, God,
If religion is supposed to bring people together,
why is it that all it does to me is taking people I love away from me?
I’m not angry at you, God.
But I have to admit it breaks my heart.
Aren’t we all taught to love people regardless of their religion?
But why can’t I continue to love someone because of our differences?
I know I’m not the most faithful person in you,
and I know I’m not the most knowledgeable person about religion.
But, God…you know me.
All I want is to love someone freely.
I don’t care if the person refers you by any other names other than God,
because if I love a good person, why would it matter?
I feel like I can’t love anymore. I don’t want to get hurt.
I’m tired of being hurt.
But please, God,
just show me why.
I just want to be a good person. I’m trying my best to be.
So can you please stop taking people that I love away from me?
I just want to love a good person.
Thank you, God.