That beautiful facade,
I foolishly fell in love with.
Oh, honey, I am a fool.
But god damn it I’m your fool.
I look in the mirror and I laugh,
“How did you get so far off?”
So far deep, deep down,
wearing the fool’s crown?
Laugh, laugh, laugh.
Admit it, this is funny.
Your chaos behind your facade.
How much time do you have before you fall apart?
Accept it, this is a domino game.
The stack of cards won’t stop falling over.
If you seriously think this is a game,
shouldn’t it be time that it’s game over?
If I have a question to ask more,
do you even know yourself anymore?
“Without the mask,
where will you hide?
Can’t find yourself,
lost in your lies,”
– Evanescence “Everybody’s Fool”
Every step I take it feels like I’m walking on needles.
Step by step, it only hurts a little,
but then the wounds would not heal.
And all I can do is try not to feel.
Where should I go this time,
where should I walk to?
I want to see you later sometime,
but really will I be able to?
Every breath I take it feels like I’m inhaling needles.
It stabs through the heart but only a little,
but the deeper I breathe in, the more painful it feels,
please say it, tell me all of this is not real…
Say you love me again,
instead of saying her name.
Do you want to know a secret?
It is me.
No, I’m not.
Today is supposed to be four.
Didn’t really think of it before.
But we were no more.
And then my heart tore.
Once again the night is cold and lonely.
How many more nights can I bear this feeling?
The violet sky is falling.
The night is cold and lonely,
the darkness makes it hard to see.
But there’s warmth when you’re within,
just as warm as the touch of your skin.
Quietly enveloping its arms around you,
wasn’t sure if you felt it too.
But the night does not even wonder,
because at your touch, it felt better.
I walk alone in the streets,
because I can’t stand being alone in the sheets.
The sheets that still smells of you,
and the scent that won’t go away too.
The night is getting colder,
never realised I’m getting older.
How many days since it has passed?
Feels like my mind is in the past.
I’m not the spotlight, I’m just a shadow,
always behind you to watch you grow.
So when you look back, I’ll always be there,
to keep you away from your nightmare.
A shadow who will never walk away,
A shadow who will never let you astray.
In the dark night I will hold you tight,
like a silent knight protecting you with all my might.
Because I’m just a shadow.
In my dreams.
In these tunes.
It’s hard to breathe so let it be over.
Blast the drums in my ears.
So I can’t hear the sound of my fears.
And I can’t feel my own tears.
Tell me why is it so hard to breathe.
Shout and scream it out loud.
So I can’t hear my brain pound.
When I’m high above the cloud.
Let me crawl out of this skin to feel alive.
Please, someone scream to me,
so I can’t hear these thoughts in me.
An object is only the strongest at its weakest point.
feeling as light as a fairy feather.
There’s plenty of air,
but I can’t catch a breather.
Like sunken into the abyss,
I can’t feel my own breathing.
How can I escape from this,
when I don’t know what’s happening?
the air is hazy.
the air is heavy.
“Don’t forget to breathe,”
The tightly-shut eyes now can see,
as my feet step on the ground abruptly.
Balancing myself carefully,
orienting things surrounding me.
Breathe, breathe deeply.
“Don’t forget to breathe,”
How long do I have left until I’m floating again?
because I’m lost without you, but let me orient myself.