“What would you like to get as your birthday gift?”
The thing is I never prepared an answer for this.

A gift is a sincere thought.
That the gifter sees this item and thought,
“she will love this” or “this is just the thing for her”

The best part of receiving a gift is the suspense as you open the wrapping,
wondering what this person decided to give.
It could range from anything cheap and useful, to something branded and expensive.
But you would never know unless you decide to open the wrapping.

I have asked God for many gifts,
many gifts that He decided not to give.
Not because He did not want to give,
but because He has a better gift.

A gift that He knew would be just the best for me.
A gift that was unexpected when I unwrapped it, but God knew that I will love.
A gift that God knew that I will take care of.

A gift that will last a lifetime.

An early birthday gift for me,
is the day you were born.
Happy birthday.


Letter to God

Dear God,
I know I haven’t talked to you in a while.
I haven’t prayed like I was taught to.
But you know you’re always on my mind.
You know you never left my heart.

there has been something that’s bothering me lately.
And I thought I want to ask you why,
because I don’t understand.
Can you answer me?

why do people worship you differently?

Tell me, God,
If religion is supposed to bring people together,
why is it that all it does to me is taking people I love away from me?

I’m not angry at you, God.
But I have to admit it breaks my heart.

Aren’t we all taught to love people regardless of their religion?
But why can’t I continue to love someone because of our differences?

I know I’m not the most faithful person in you,
and I know I’m not the most knowledgeable person about religion.
But, God…you know me.
All I want is to love someone freely.

I don’t care if the person refers you by any other names other than God,
because if I love a good person, why would it matter?

I’m tired.
I feel like I can’t love anymore. I don’t want to get hurt.
I’m tired of being hurt.

But please, God,
just show me why.

I just want to be a good person. I’m trying my best to be.
So can you please stop taking people that I love away from me?

I just want to love a good person.

Thank you, God.

Letter to God