But how can I not smile,
when every time I look at you,
I see you fathering our children.
Hey there, little girl.
You may think you’re not doing well,
and the world is going against you.
Keep holding on,
you will get there.
It won’t be an easy path,
you will have your heart ripped out,
broken into pieces,
to the point you feel numb.
You will learn to fight,
and to let go.
They can forcibly take your flower crown,
but don’t let them take your innocence.
Nothing says love more than
simply being there
for someone who is crying their insecurities out on the floor
at 3 A.M.
bearing their pain
that is silence broken by the sound of their tears
knowing that this won’t be their last breakdown
and you choose to stay.
attraction brings you in,
but love makes you stay
Perfection, flawless, impeccable.
Unrealistic and unattainable.
Mistakes and flaws.
Gripping my heart like claws.
Until when will I punish myself?
This perfection obsession,
hazed my reflection.
Is the mirror dirty or is my brain cloudy?
The more I avoid making mistakes,
the more I make mistakes.
What do I do after the mistakes are made?
Acknowledge and learn.
I’m perfection in my imperfection.
Casually throwing teases at each other,
Never felt like they really matter.
The more I know, the more I smile.
Feelings grew in me, feelings that are worthwhile.
Your teases became my comfort zone,
Your laugh became my favourite tone.
Suddenly you became a part of me,
I thought “Ah, maybe we are meant to be”.
As every tease turns into a kiss,
I’m falling deeper into the abyss.
But in the abyss, there’s you.
You, who smiled back at me too.
When words cannot even explain,
all these feelings that I can’t contain,
I just smile.
Because I know you are worthwhile.
Because the better things in life have to be fought for, right?
Floating around the ocean of emotions,
I wished that the strong wave would take me back ashore.
To wherever I was before I jumped into the ocean.
But the fact is, I’m still floating here.
I can’t go back.
All I can do is swim ahead and find another land.
I was floating around the ocean.
No safety belts, no life jackets.
Just waves and waves crushing down on me.
Taking me to places and trying to drown me.
The ocean had calmed down and I have seen the land far front.
However, I can also see the upcoming surge of waves ahead.
This time, I have to swim hard and strong, swimming against the waves.
So I can be ashore again.
It was the year I lost myself.
I lost sight of who I was.
I didn’t go through a roller coaster of emotions.
At least, if I was on a roller coaster, I would have my safety belt.
No matter how rough and twisted the tracks were,
I would still be seated safely.
Starring multi-faceted characters.
Scenes were to unfold innocently.
Developments were not to be complicated.
The plot was supposedly predictable.
Any audience would have guessed the ending.
Nothing is ever what they seem.
The past was supposed to stay in the past.
It came and clashed with the present.
The past was impossible, we knew that.
Hence the past was given up and no longer a part of the present.
The present is not what it seems.
It is the biggest plot twist in the story.
Colpo di Scena.
Innocence is an illusion.
Vision could only reach the visage.
Serenity is only a semblance.
Fear is hidden behind the façade.